I honestly can’t believe it’s 2013. Not with “I thought the Mayans were going to be right” incredulity. My lack of belief lies more in the realm of where did last year go?
Yet, I wasn’t sad to see 2012 go. It was a tough year all around. A year of roadblocks and writer’s block. A year filled with wrist surgery, wrist re-injury (and now pending surgery), eight months (and still going) of some type of allergy-related illness, struggles with one great job, and shifting to another. All of this while attempting to raise a now-three-year-old girl. (That’s not a bad thing at all, just a bit humbling while very exciting.)
While 2012 was a tough year, it’s made even weirder by the fact that I went the entire year without posting here once. And I’m not sure why I couldn’t find the words or the inspiration. It’s like I lost my voice, and I’m just now trying to get it back.
A little over a year ago, I had dinner with a group of email colleagues. At one point, the conversation turned to writing vs. speaking, and how one is usually good at one and struggles with the other. I said that I’m a better writer than speaker–not because I’m not eloquent when I need to be, but I’m better at writing down my thoughts than saying them out loud (much to my wife’s chagrin).
At that time, I was working for Inbox Group, and I mentioned that I was struggling to find my blogging voice again, whether it was here or anywhere. I wasn’t sure whether it was because I was a client-side email marketer with opinions and hard-nosed experience and was having trouble making the transition to agency-side work, or if it was something else.
When I went back to client-side work, I think I told myself two things:
- Now that I’m back “where I belong,” I’ll have no problem writing again.
- I’ve only been quiet because I’ve been “disconnecting” and “lurking.”
I’ve been back “where I belong” for 9 months now, and clearly, I’ve had problems writing.
Am I going to apologize to you?
But here’s my plan for the near future:
- Write what comes to mind, not just about email.
- Be okay with shorter posts and incomplete thoughts (something my wife would be happy about, too).
- Make an e-book out of the old Email Snob Interviews which got killed in the blog-pocalypse a few months but for which I still have all of the content.
I’m determined to do something. I’m just sorry it took me over a year and 430 words to tell you that.